I started wearing makeup when I was about twelve years old. I had no idea what I was doing, of course. My mother never wore makeup so everything I knew came from what I saw on TV and in magazines. YouTube didn’t exist then.
An eyeliner pencil was my first makeup purchase. (Eyeliner will forever have a special place in my heart because of this.) I wore it on just my lower waterline for years. It was not a good look.
I can’t remember exactly why I wanted to start wearing makeup. I’m sure it had something to do with wanting to fit in, looking like the models in the magazines, feeling pretty, changing up my look so I could blend in. All of the above?
Whatever the reason, makeup started to become a mask for me. It was something to hide behind. At one point, I refused to leave the house without makeup on.
Only recently did I realize there was a shift in the way I viewed makeup. Since my first eyeliner purchase, I’ve definitely experimented and expanded my makeup collection to include eyeshadow, foundation, blush, bronzer, highlighter, eyebrow pencils, the whole shabang.
The more I experimented, the more I knew what worked for me and what didn’t. To my surprise, I was more confident with and without makeup on. I also started to really see my facial features: the shape of my eyes, the arch in my eyebrows, the fullness of my lips. These were just some of the things I overlooked. Things that I never appreciated as a teen.
One morning, I realized all these features were passed down to me from my parents and I felt the full gravity of how special that was. I wasn’t hiding my features anymore, but accentuating them. I was highlighting all the things that made me different, all the things that were gifted to me.
I suppose, eventually, as we come into adulthood, it’s not about hiding your face with makeup anymore but actually showing off what makes you unique. This little epiphany of mine inspired me to create this video and share this message.
The video didn’t turn out exactly how I wanted it to but I hope it still resonates with you. Share your makeup journey with me in the comments! I’d love to hear your story.